I wanted to be totally honest about this journey from the beginning. And in so many ways, I have. I haven’t sugar-coated the things I’ve shared. But I also haven’t shared a whole lot beyond what could fit in an Instagram caption.
It’s been really hard for me to truly bleed words onto this blog about this year and what sparked it for a few reasons, but the heart of all of them is fear.
I have been afraid of judgement. I’ve been afraid of hurting people’s feelings (people who have certainly hurt mine in the past). I’ve been afraid of failure.
I’m still afraid of all of those things, but I’m not in as raw a place as I was a year ago or 6 months ago or 6 weeks ago.
It’s November 1st, and maybe I’ll blog every day this month, or maybe I’ll have the best of intentions but I’ll be super tired and overwhelmed somedays and I’ll fail at NaBloPoMo (National Blog Posting Month) like I have many years before this. For now, though, here are 3 things I haven’t put out there until now:
- The election of 2016 had a profound impact on me and our family and was a major spark for this. My kids came home from school singing a song about building a wall that they learned from classmates on the playground in the days following the election. The weeks after the election brought into razor sharp focus how important it was for us to get serious about walking the walk with our kids when it came to our values and the values we hoped they’d grow up to embrace. We could not rely on the community around us to teach them why this country was already great in so many ways, and how we can and must fight to make it better for all people who live here. We couldn’t assume they would pick these values up from us if we weren’t intentional about it. That’s not to say everyone in our community was a racist or that we were expecting other people to teach these important lessons to our children. It was that we realized we had to really start to take seriously the task before us.
- We didn’t have a massive savings account that would take us through the year. I had a blog and we based our living expenses on a low average of what I’d earned off of it the 3 previous years. We had high hopes (fueled by actual conversations with people who we trusted) we’d be able to add to that by monetizing this platform, especially the YouTube episodes we were making for a large YT channel at the beginning of the year. We made the mistake of focusing on things that were not immediately profitable, I put my money-making blog on the back burner as I worked myself to exhaustion on YouTube content that netted us zero dollars, and promoting a book that is more a bragging-right than a paycheck. Financially, this trip has been a roller coaster, and I’ve learned some serious business lessons, the biggest being that nobody is invested in your success more than you are, and nobody will feel the effects of your failure more than you will. I have worked harder this year than I ever have in my life.
- Failure is a matter of perspective. Failure is an ingredient in the recipe of success. Failure has an image problem. I’ve become good friends with failure this year. If my kids learn 2 things from this trip, beyond those values we are trying to model, I hope they will be:
You can speak a crazy idea into existence. You can dream a big dream and then you can go live it.
Your dreams can fall and fail, and then take new shapes and rise again.
I haven’t shielded my kids from failures this year. The whole of this journey will be more beautiful and more meaningful when they can remember the lows that came with the highs.
I won’t apologize for my absence here. I’m not promising anything else moving forward. I hope I’ll be back to share more soon.
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I want my kids to learn how to try and know it’s ok to fail! Love the transparency. I’m loving seeing your journey…
Congrats on a dream realized!
I think you guys are amazing!!! I have enjoyed watching you guys trek around! I think your children are so blessed to have had this wonderful adventure, and i sincerely hope you continue on with your adventures, after all life is just one really big adventure! I have enjoyed your honesty about the ups and downs and i think that is what resonates with people. At least i know thats what resonated with me…i am tired of the fake hollywoodisms everyone is trying to be…..show me real, cause i know in my own home qih my own children, we do REAL all the time LOL! So all this to say Thank You for sharing your adventure!
Best post yet💕
Thank you for sharing your FULL journey. I am endlessly inspired by your leap out of the box. I have 2 boys and worry about the same things. We are having great, open and clear talks about all these things in our house but getting out and seeing how vast, diverse and wonderful our country is will be a gift your kids will cherish forever. Amazed by you guys!
Loving every minute of your story, your journey, your honesty.
Yes, Jill! Proud of you for being brave with this post. ❤️👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
I’d wondered about the lack of YouTube content this month. I guess if you’re not making any money from it, why bother. Do you think it’s due to market saturation, bad terms for creators, or something else?
Hope you’re managing to get some long deserved rest during this leg of the trip.
Thank you Jill for sharing your journey honestly. I think you answer questions that we ALL have and I really relate to all of your reasons WHY. We started homeschooling this year due to similar worries as you expressed after the 2016 election. Keep staying true to yourself, we love you and your family!
We’re launching a brand new business this month with a big idea and not a lot of cash. It is scary, and I know people think we’re crazy. Especially those closest to us. But your words about your own experience are encouraging!
Beautiful. The wall song is frightening. I can see how that would spur you to action.
Love your RV sign on the clipboard. Thanks for bringing your camping family to ours here at Sunfox. Sorry you caught us as the campground was closing (despite the nicest day in many weeks). Good luck with the journey. I must admit to being a little jealous, not only of your travels, but also of your ability to be able to share your social/political beliefs without (hopefully) having it impact your tenuous bottom-line. Sadly, such is not the case with many small businesses, for if I were to overtly share my disdain for the current administration as a business owner, we could lose the 39% of the country who support Potus (a figure that, sadly, might actually be higher among campers). As much as I’d like to think it would not impact us, as a fairly open-minded guy, I would plead guilty to shunning an establishment that openly espouses views that are antithetical to my own. You might appreciate this post from famed author Wally Lamb (who just happens to have been a former teacher here in Norwich)…but be cautioned of his language if sharing with the kiddos. https://www.facebook.com/authorwallylamb/posts/wally-wally-wally-what-the-hell-you-doing-man-posting-your-political-opinions-on/1579653085397556/
I have always loved this aspect of your writing, waaaaay back from the original Baby Rabies days, but even before that on the wedding planning website where we met. Your willingness to be so real is such a gift. I enjoy it so much every time you share.
MrsDonkey!! 😀 Jill, you have such a gift!!
This honestly made me a little teary. I’ve followed you from waaay back since the days of the Knot and Nest. And have very much enjoyed your journey, your openness and your honesty on this adventure. I’m in a similar season of life, and these words resonate strongly with me. Thank you for sharing your life with us.
Jill, it’s been amazing watching your family’s journey this year. It’s made me yearn for unknown things in some way and dream of the could be’s. I’m glad you are being transparent with your struggles and making it real. I wish you lots of luck and am sending positive vibes for wherever your journey will take you. Fingers crossed you can see all the other amazing places, like Hawaii, Australia and Europe! If you ever make it to Germany and you need suggestions or a translator, let me know! 😉
You’ve always been so transparent, even with Baby Rabies. Keep pushing! I’m so proud of you for taking the leap! Your kids will benefit so much from this trip and will never forget the lessons learned. Keep it up! I will be praying for y’all!
I love this. Your light, your honesty, and your persistence.
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